Night time reflections

welp, turns out i'm not the only one to be rejected by Fiddler. a bunch of other girls didnt get in either, so i dont feel so bad i guess.

Today was rough... i really miss my mom (featured above). and it kills me that i wont be able to see her over break, i love her like crazy. even though she can be a pain in the ass sometimes (i'm no picnic either). and school...ugh... i just... hate school. i always have, i dont know why i thought i'd just all the sudden love college...

I miss Snow. the big fatty flakes that are as big as a nickle. i miss looking out the window at night and seeing it come down in sheets. i miss breathing in cold air, feeling it go through you... makes you feel so alive... I miss the quiet of unpaved streets, and the sparkle of it in the morning.

i've been meaning to watch Love Actually, but i know i would just end up being terribly depressed... You see, i have a date over christmas break with a boy named Eric. i'm very VERY excited. but i'm so worried that i'll just get my hopes up only to have them come crashing down again later... damn... i always just dive head first into things without thinking, i wish i didnt do that, but i'm so 'go with the flow' that i just give in. but i feel like i'm over Jonathan and at peace with that now so... i dont think i'm on the rebound or anything. i just think, he's a nice guy, he's christian, he's rich, has a stable job, he makes me laugh, he thinks i'm beautiful, why not!?
in other news, i love Stephen Colbert, and i want his book very VERY badly. AND i want the best of Colber Report dvd. i would love you forever if you gave it to me :D

so song of the day today is: Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg (its the song in that one jewlery comerical where the two people are sitting in a car at a stop light and the guy hands her a necklace and the son is like "i think quite possibly, maybe i'm fallin' for you" SO CUTE! made me tear up when i first saw it!)

and the boy of the day is: Mr.Andreas Wilson *soo pretty*