ugh.

a coma sounds nice right about now... i could just sleep. i wouldnt have to worry about money, or gas, or how i'm going to get groceries, or how i'm going to get to work, or how i hurt people, or how angry i am, or how i'm not a good person, or how much i'm suffocating... i could just lay down and not have to think for a month or so.

but then my mom would have to pay for my hospital bills. and she just lost her job. and i just got into a car accident. and i'm losing my home. and i just want to feel sorry for myself even though i know it wont help anything...

...yep a coma sounds nice.