ugh.

a coma sounds nice right about now... i could just sleep. i wouldnt have to worry about money, or gas, or how i'm going to get groceries, or how i'm going to get to work, or how i hurt people, or how angry i am, or how i'm not a good person, or how much i'm suffocating... i could just lay down and not have to think for a month or so.

but then my mom would have to pay for my hospital bills. and she just lost her job. and i just got into a car accident. and i'm losing my home. and i just want to feel sorry for myself even though i know it wont help anything...

...yep a coma sounds nice.

Tattoo...

This is the new tattoo derek got me for my birthday:)




and this was the picture it was based on! I loved it because next to the picture it said this: "Although this sea bird does not figure in Celtic legend, it is connected to Lir, the Sea-God and, like many other birds, was considered to be a messenger from the Otherworlds. Also known as a connection to other worlds"

Its funny because i hate seagulls, they are mean horrible birds.But i can be a mean horrible bird too, and if they can still be a messenger of God in spite of the fact that they are selfish and horrible then so can i. And yes i'm aware that i'm not Irish. However, i once had a vision where i met God in Ireland and everything became a lot clearer... its a bit personal, but thats why.



In other news: I applied for the Cafe Supervisor postion at Borders, my boss said that i was one of the frontrunners for the position so i have a good chance. It would be amazing if i got it, i'd get paid 10 dollars an hour and work full time so i wouldnt have to get a second job so please, please, please pray for me! thanks!

It's Always Sunny with Jack Handy :)

I just wanted to share these with you all because they make me tear up with laughter, and thats the best kind :) Happy Wednesday/day before my birthday!

"To Me its a good idea to always carry two sacks of something when you walk around. That way, if anyone says "Hey can you give me a hand?" You can say, "sorry, got these sacks" -Jack Handy

"Whenever some asks me to define love, i usually spin around and pin the guy's arm behind his back. Now Who's asking questions?" -Jack Handy

"IF you're an ant walking across pudding, you probably have no idea the only thing between you and disaster is the strength of the pudding skin" -Jack Handy

"It's true that everytime a bell rings an angel gets its wings, but what they dont tell you is everytime you hear a mousetrap snap an angel gets set on fire!" -Jack Handy

"If i come back as a horse fly, I think my favorite thing would be to land on someones lip. Even if they smack you, Ick! You're all over their lip!" -Jack Handy


"I hate listening to people's dreams. It is like flipping through a stack of photographs. If I'm not in any of them and nobody is having sex, I just don't care." -Dennis from Its Always Sunny In Philadelphia

"If you're good today, I'm gonna buy you anything that you want... anything in the world, alright? [Tommy spits on Charlie] Oh my god! I will smash your face into a... into a jelly!" -Charlie from Its Always Sunny In Philadelphia

"Dennis: What the hell is going on?
Charlie: That's Tammy, Trey's ex-girlfriend. This is classic Tammy. Trey broke up with Tammy because Maureen Kanallen said that she saw Tammy flirting with Walt Timny at a party, but she was only doing it to make Trey jealous because you know, she thought that Trey secretly liked Erin Henebry, but he doesn't like Erin Henebry, it was all a bunch of bull.
[Sweet Dee wanders over in a drunken stupor]
Sweet Dee: What is happening?
Charlie: That's Tammy, Trey's ex-girlfriend. This is classic Tammy. Trey broke up with Tammy because--
Mac: Okay, you know what Charlie, you gotta stop, honestly..."
-It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia

"Charlie: This costume, the chicks is gonna go crazy all over it.
Frank: Maybe you should let me do all the talking.
Charlie: No, it's like shooting fish in a barrel. So watch and learn.
Stripper: Awww, look at you sweetie, what happened?
Charlie: [shouting] Viet-goddamn-nam is what happened! Go get me a beer, bitch!" -It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

"Hi. I'm a recovering crack head. This is my retarded sister that I take care of. I'd like some welfare, please." -Dennis from Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia

Charlie: It says M-meet... and then a bunch of words after it.
Dennis: It says meet me in the parking lot, Frank. I think you have a learning disorder bro." -It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

" [singing] I'm gonna rise up, gonna kick a little ass, gonna kick some ass in the USA. Gonna climb a mountain, gonna sew a flag, gonna fly on an eagle. I'm gonna kick some butt, I'm gonna drive a big truck, I'm gonna rule this world, I'm gonna kick some ass, I'm gonna rise up, I'm gonna kick a little ass. ROCK, FLAG, AND EAGLE." -Charlie from Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia

20 years old on June 5th

So my birthday is in 4 days. i need some good ideas of things i can do that are still cheap. i have basically no money at all. well... i do get paid on the 6th though, so maybe on the weekend i can plan something... but still! What is something really fun and really really cheap? i'd like to have a party because i always used to have theme parties and i LOVE theme parties, but i dont want to have to buy a bunch of party stuff... boo. I wish i wasnt so Poo' (pronounced 'Pou' like Pour without the 'R'... the joke is i'm so poor i cant even afford the 'R', i'm not poo as in crap). So yeah... Ideas?