SO i've been having weird vivid dreams this week. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that i forgot my amazing tempur-pedic pillow at school so i had to use a regular one, causeing me uncomfortable sleep, so i havent been in the normal coma sate i usually am in. In one of my dreams i was complaining how i never met a famous person while i've been in California, so i went to the grocery store and in that one grocery store, Ben Affleck and Jennifer Garner were there buying wine and i helped them pick some out, and they were very friendly. Then in the same dream i was in the meat section and there was Nicole Kidman! but she was kinda rude.
Then last night i had a dream that i had to get across this lake on this thing that pulled me across it but it dragged my legs in the water, which would be fine, but the lake had these HUGE alligators in it!!! like, Peter Pan huge! and so i just prayed it would go fast and went on it, but then it died in the middle and i had to swim to the edge of the lake and one bit me, but then my friend Tyler pulled me out and saved me. So Weird.
In other news! I went to the Phoenix Coyotes vs Canadian Maple Leafs hockey game last night. i frickin' LOVE hockey!!! There was 2 fights! TWO! One of them the guy ripped the other guys jersey and pads off! and i didnt know, that if two guys start fighting, that they LET THEM FIGHT!!!! How AWESOME is that!!! So these fights go on for like 3 minutes and they just let them punch eachother until one is on the ground and then they break it up! and boy were they playing dirty! they called so many fouls for like, hitting people with sticks and charging at them from across the ice and stuff, i mean you have to love a sport whos major fouls include: Kicking, Hooking, elbowing, fighting (in general), and all these other ones i dont remember that have to do with hurting the other person ahha. if you want to see a hockey fight here is a link to a compilation of fights: http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.yourdailymedia.com/i/u/0zcA7RK4.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.yourdailymedia.com/post/1143623377/David_Kaczowka_Hockey_Fight_Compilation&h=157&w=220&sz=6&hl=en&start=87&um=1&tbnid=S_JDFkq7bH4vIM:&tbnh=76&tbnw=107&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dhockey%2Bfights%26start%3D80%26ndsp%3D20%26svnum%3D10%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26safe%3Doff%26sa%3DN
it is AWESOME.
It took me 19 years, but i've FINALLY found a sport i LOVE. i LOVE hockey. LOVE it. and i LOVE hockey players. haha just call me Mrs. Mike Zigomanis:
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Do Not See
Love in a time of Cholera. it was horrible for the following reasons:
1. Really REALLY awkward sex scenes, and theres A LOT of them. Now, i usually have no problem with sex scenes, they dont really bother me at all. but these were just AWKWARD. like,this guy lickes his fingers and then touches her boob, and theres another one where Florentino is having sex with this girl, and the cat jumps off the table and scratches his butt. Now, i knew there would be a lot of sex, because in the book thats the only way he could forget about her, so he slept with 623 women... and there are a few sex scenes in the book, but they were never THAT awkward! they were so beautifully written. dang.
2. HORRIBLE dialog! i mean, the book is mostly written as a narrative, so... theres not a lot of dialog in the book, but really, REALLY? there wasnt much narration in the movie so it was just a bunch of awkward dialog. i know i'm saying awkward a lot but that word is so fitting.
3. They made all the men in the movie creepy! every last one of them. they made the main character, Florentino, look like a creepy weirdo stalker, who evoked no sympathy whatsoever.
4. The lead woman they chose was unconvincing as Fermina. Fermina is supposed to be this strong willed, beautiful woman who all these men covet and what not, and she was so plain looking, and weak. it sucked.
so yeah. read the book. the book is good. the movie= two thumbs down.
1. Really REALLY awkward sex scenes, and theres A LOT of them. Now, i usually have no problem with sex scenes, they dont really bother me at all. but these were just AWKWARD. like,this guy lickes his fingers and then touches her boob, and theres another one where Florentino is having sex with this girl, and the cat jumps off the table and scratches his butt. Now, i knew there would be a lot of sex, because in the book thats the only way he could forget about her, so he slept with 623 women... and there are a few sex scenes in the book, but they were never THAT awkward! they were so beautifully written. dang.
2. HORRIBLE dialog! i mean, the book is mostly written as a narrative, so... theres not a lot of dialog in the book, but really, REALLY? there wasnt much narration in the movie so it was just a bunch of awkward dialog. i know i'm saying awkward a lot but that word is so fitting.
3. They made all the men in the movie creepy! every last one of them. they made the main character, Florentino, look like a creepy weirdo stalker, who evoked no sympathy whatsoever.
4. The lead woman they chose was unconvincing as Fermina. Fermina is supposed to be this strong willed, beautiful woman who all these men covet and what not, and she was so plain looking, and weak. it sucked.
so yeah. read the book. the book is good. the movie= two thumbs down.
AND when i came out of the theatre, someone had written "i (heart) Ponn Pussy" on my back window. it was quite humorous, mostly because i think they were trying to spell the word pawn, but instead spelled it 'Ponn.' i'm not even quite sure what they meant, did they mean i was a pimp? because thats sort of a compliment, right? but somehow i dont think they were trying to compliment me. i was confused. I thought it might be andrew at first because we put vasiline on his door handles and wrote "Sucka" across his windsheild using cheerios and vasaline (which he so smartly decided to turn his windsheild wipers on, which only spread the vasiline across his entire windsheild). but i doubt he would write the word pussy, and i have a feeling i have a lot more coming to me than just some writing in dirt. i will be sure to keep you updated on that.
Monday, November 19, 2007
awww...dang.
Jonathan Rhys Meyers was arrested in Dublin yesterday for public drunkenness and breach of the peace after he was refused entry on a flight bound for London. The BBC says:
The 30-year-old was released on bail and is due to appear before Dublin District Court on 5 December.In April, Irish-born Meyers was admitted to a Californian rehab clinic but checked out the following month.Speaking to news agency The Associated Press last year, the actor said he found it hard to socialise in Ireland because of its hard-drinking pub culture."I gave up drinking a few years ago, and this is the first time I've spent time in my country trying not to drink," he said."I would never drink again. It is hard to avoid. I want my career, and you can't really do that and be successful on the screen.
he is so hot. Who wants to see August Rush with me!!??? anyone!?
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I think i'm done Mourning.
I think i'm done mourning Jonathan. Its time to move on. and i feel weirdly at peace with this. interesting.
Monday, November 12, 2007
its over.
ABBY:hahaha no i just had a small epiphany
JONATHAN:what is that?
ABBY:you thinkwell, you know, sometimes this seems so in the moment i forget that i tell you so much
JONATHAN:yeah we do have a connection i just wish it wasn't long distance
ABBY:yeah... i wish it wasnt too
JONTHAN:im really missing physical contact
ABBY:me too...
JONATHAN:ive always thought long distance is impossible but i want it to...just doesn't ever work outya knowor rather it hasn't for me...hell i broke up with a girl 2 hours away because of the distance ha
ABBY:i think for it to work both people have to be equally devoted but... it will be hard... i just wish i had more options
JONATHAN:what kind of options?
ABBY:like, money to fly out and see you on the weekendsor a place to live closer to you
JONTHAN:awe yeah i should be in a possition to do all those things i think im just now starting to think i have a future and i want to follow through with my goals its kind of exciting
ABBY:and its beautiful jonathan
i just want to be part of your future... but if you dont see me in it then... theres not a lot i can do...
JONATHAN: welli don't see you in a role of girlfriend right nowbut i want to continue to talk to you its just not the right time for either of us those words hit me like a ton of bricks...you the same?
ABBY:i cnat really breathe right now
JONATHAN: im sorry
ABBY:do you... i mean is it really not the right time or are you saying that to break it to me 'gently'... like, do you just not love me anymore
JONATHAN:no i really mean its not the right time I REALLY DO you cross over the line of care about and love often but when i don't talkto you its just care aboutbut when we start talking its love i know that doesn't make much sense
ABBY:no... you've told me before how you forget how much you like talking to me... i figured i wasnt really part of your life... just the girl you talk to
JONATHAN:you were part of my life this is weird but you gave me confidence in myself to know that someone could care about me like that again....im really damaged goods...after me and my ex broke up she had abortion and i went crazy...i drank a LOT
ABBY:i didnt think anyone would ever truely love me... and now i know that no one will...
JONATHAN:please don't say such thingsthat you know to be false you are trying to make yourself feel worse its not that its just the distance and the timing i really do care about you your amazing you have one of the best personality i have ever come across and you are so cute and oh so sexy know that i will think of you every time i hear water nymph im sorry
ABBY:so i wont see you over christmas break then...
JONATHAN: i haven't decided yet...im ambivalentabout it
ABBY:i dont know what to say
JONATHAN:ditto
ABBY:i honestly thought i'd be enough to make it work...
JONATHAN: Im just lonely when im not talking with you and i need to hold you and you cant be here i haven't had a girlfriend in a year! ugh that sounded very guyish. i haven't kissed someone in so long god i feel selfish
ABBY:so you're going to find someone to kiss.
JONATHAN: im going to try to have a connection with a person....and i know that it probably won't be as strong as ours but atleast she is tangible
JONATHAN:im going to go nowim sorry...i feel horrible.
ABBY:please dont ever say you loved me.
JONATHAN:what is that?
ABBY:you thinkwell, you know, sometimes this seems so in the moment i forget that i tell you so much
JONATHAN:yeah we do have a connection i just wish it wasn't long distance
ABBY:yeah... i wish it wasnt too
JONTHAN:im really missing physical contact
ABBY:me too...
JONATHAN:ive always thought long distance is impossible but i want it to...just doesn't ever work outya knowor rather it hasn't for me...hell i broke up with a girl 2 hours away because of the distance ha
ABBY:i think for it to work both people have to be equally devoted but... it will be hard... i just wish i had more options
JONATHAN:what kind of options?
ABBY:like, money to fly out and see you on the weekendsor a place to live closer to you
JONTHAN:awe yeah i should be in a possition to do all those things i think im just now starting to think i have a future and i want to follow through with my goals its kind of exciting
ABBY:and its beautiful jonathan
i just want to be part of your future... but if you dont see me in it then... theres not a lot i can do...
JONATHAN: welli don't see you in a role of girlfriend right nowbut i want to continue to talk to you its just not the right time for either of us those words hit me like a ton of bricks...you the same?
ABBY:i cnat really breathe right now
JONATHAN: im sorry
ABBY:do you... i mean is it really not the right time or are you saying that to break it to me 'gently'... like, do you just not love me anymore
JONATHAN:no i really mean its not the right time I REALLY DO you cross over the line of care about and love often but when i don't talkto you its just care aboutbut when we start talking its love i know that doesn't make much sense
ABBY:no... you've told me before how you forget how much you like talking to me... i figured i wasnt really part of your life... just the girl you talk to
JONATHAN:you were part of my life this is weird but you gave me confidence in myself to know that someone could care about me like that again....im really damaged goods...after me and my ex broke up she had abortion and i went crazy...i drank a LOT
ABBY:i didnt think anyone would ever truely love me... and now i know that no one will...
JONATHAN:please don't say such thingsthat you know to be false you are trying to make yourself feel worse its not that its just the distance and the timing i really do care about you your amazing you have one of the best personality i have ever come across and you are so cute and oh so sexy know that i will think of you every time i hear water nymph im sorry
ABBY:so i wont see you over christmas break then...
JONATHAN: i haven't decided yet...im ambivalentabout it
ABBY:i dont know what to say
JONATHAN:ditto
ABBY:i honestly thought i'd be enough to make it work...
JONATHAN: Im just lonely when im not talking with you and i need to hold you and you cant be here i haven't had a girlfriend in a year! ugh that sounded very guyish. i haven't kissed someone in so long god i feel selfish
ABBY:so you're going to find someone to kiss.
JONATHAN: im going to try to have a connection with a person....and i know that it probably won't be as strong as ours but atleast she is tangible
JONATHAN:im going to go nowim sorry...i feel horrible.
ABBY:please dont ever say you loved me.
i guess its time to update.
maybe i'm not so lonely. You know, it feels good to get things off your chest to people you love, the truth really does set you free sometimes. i highly recomend it.
My life has been pretty good. except yesterday i heard some horrible news, but i'd rather not talk about it because i'll just get enraged again. i'm not a big fan of being enraged.
KATIE: she doesnt have a blog, but she has my link so she reads it sometimes, and i want to let everyone know that shes and amazing sister and she listens to me and cares about what i think and feel and i love her very much and couldnt ask for anyone more magnificent then her.
so yeah. i havent been spending as much time doing nothing the last couple of days, maybe thats why i'm in a good mood. i cant handle being alone for long periods of time (pathetic, i know). and i really hope that trend continues. i like people a lot.
i miss my friend Ben. today is his birthday. i miss a lot of people. but thats not exactly new.
i still love Jonathan, i just wish i could talk to him more often, he's been pretty busy lately :(
well i'm running out of things to say so i think i'm going to do something i love, and put up random bits of trivia to share with the world... or at least the 5 people who read my blog, ha! :D
Twins are born less frequently born in the eastern part of the world than in the western.
Synesthesia is a rare condition in which the senses are combined. Synesthetes see words, taste colors and shapes, and feel flavors. Singer John Mayer has it.
The onion is a lily, botanically.
Aristotle, Sir Isaac Newton, Moses, and Charles Darwin had a problem expressing themselves because they stuttered.
A chicken will lay bigger and stronger eggs if you change the lighting in such a way as to make them think a day is 28 hours long.
Jim Morrison found the name "The Doors" for his rock band in the title of Aldous Huxley's book "The Doors of Perception, which extolls the use of hallucinogenic drugs.
In Denmark, it is not considered proper to tip at restaurants or hotels. (I need to go to Denmark :D ha)
Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day
Las Vegas means "the meadows" in Spanish. Ironically, the city in the desert was once abundant in water and vegetation.
Playing cards in India are round.
The electric chair was invented by a dentist. (thats why i hate dentists)
Spiders never spin webs in structures made of chestnut wood. That is why so many European chateaux were built with chestnut beams – spider webs on a 50-foot beamed ceiling can be difficult to clean.
During menstruation, the sensitivity of a woman's middle finger is reduced.
No one can say just when Walt Disney began to think about undertaking his biggest project to date, Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, but by the summer of 1934, his ideas were beginning to take concrete form. An exploratory outline that he distributed to his animation staff, dated August 9, 1934, included the following discussion of the dwarfs' names: "The names which follow each suggest a type of character and the names will immediately identify the character in the minds of the audience." Some of the names that were considered then discarded included Scrappy, Doleful, Crabby, Wistful, Dumpy, Soulful, Tearful, Snappy, Helpful, Gaspy, Gloomy, Busy, Dirty, Awful, Dizzy, Shifty, and Biggy-Wiggy.
Canadians eat more Kraft macaroni and cheese packaged dinners than any nationality in the world.
Rugby, North Dakota is the geographical center of North America, not the geographical center of the United States. That is located in Butte County, South Dakota, on the state's western border. If only the 48 contiguous states are included, the point is in Smith County, Kansas.
My life has been pretty good. except yesterday i heard some horrible news, but i'd rather not talk about it because i'll just get enraged again. i'm not a big fan of being enraged.
KATIE: she doesnt have a blog, but she has my link so she reads it sometimes, and i want to let everyone know that shes and amazing sister and she listens to me and cares about what i think and feel and i love her very much and couldnt ask for anyone more magnificent then her.
so yeah. i havent been spending as much time doing nothing the last couple of days, maybe thats why i'm in a good mood. i cant handle being alone for long periods of time (pathetic, i know). and i really hope that trend continues. i like people a lot.
i miss my friend Ben. today is his birthday. i miss a lot of people. but thats not exactly new.
i still love Jonathan, i just wish i could talk to him more often, he's been pretty busy lately :(
well i'm running out of things to say so i think i'm going to do something i love, and put up random bits of trivia to share with the world... or at least the 5 people who read my blog, ha! :D
Twins are born less frequently born in the eastern part of the world than in the western.
Synesthesia is a rare condition in which the senses are combined. Synesthetes see words, taste colors and shapes, and feel flavors. Singer John Mayer has it.
The onion is a lily, botanically.
Aristotle, Sir Isaac Newton, Moses, and Charles Darwin had a problem expressing themselves because they stuttered.
A chicken will lay bigger and stronger eggs if you change the lighting in such a way as to make them think a day is 28 hours long.
Jim Morrison found the name "The Doors" for his rock band in the title of Aldous Huxley's book "The Doors of Perception, which extolls the use of hallucinogenic drugs.
In Denmark, it is not considered proper to tip at restaurants or hotels. (I need to go to Denmark :D ha)
Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day
Las Vegas means "the meadows" in Spanish. Ironically, the city in the desert was once abundant in water and vegetation.
Playing cards in India are round.
The electric chair was invented by a dentist. (thats why i hate dentists)
Spiders never spin webs in structures made of chestnut wood. That is why so many European chateaux were built with chestnut beams – spider webs on a 50-foot beamed ceiling can be difficult to clean.
During menstruation, the sensitivity of a woman's middle finger is reduced.
No one can say just when Walt Disney began to think about undertaking his biggest project to date, Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, but by the summer of 1934, his ideas were beginning to take concrete form. An exploratory outline that he distributed to his animation staff, dated August 9, 1934, included the following discussion of the dwarfs' names: "The names which follow each suggest a type of character and the names will immediately identify the character in the minds of the audience." Some of the names that were considered then discarded included Scrappy, Doleful, Crabby, Wistful, Dumpy, Soulful, Tearful, Snappy, Helpful, Gaspy, Gloomy, Busy, Dirty, Awful, Dizzy, Shifty, and Biggy-Wiggy.
Canadians eat more Kraft macaroni and cheese packaged dinners than any nationality in the world.
Rugby, North Dakota is the geographical center of North America, not the geographical center of the United States. That is located in Butte County, South Dakota, on the state's western border. If only the 48 contiguous states are included, the point is in Smith County, Kansas.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Shia?
SHIA LEBEOUF IS UNDER ARREST - Transformers star Shia LaBeouf was arrested early Sunday morning after he refused to leave a Chicago Walgreens at 2:30 AM. LaBeouf appeared to be intoxicated and was asked repeatedly to leave by security. He refused and so police were called.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Glow
I've been feeling really crappy lately. past 2 days have been horrible, and terribly lonely. cry myself to sleep lonely. and then tonight i talked to Jonathan. He's been kinda busy the past 2 days so we havent really talked. but then tonight it was... wonderful. as usual. every time i talk to him my face hurts from smiling so much. and just that... just that he can make me smile is... its such a big deal. To smile from the heart... its beautiful and so rare, and thats what i feel everytime i talk to him. i would marry him if it meant i got to feel that way for the rest of my life, i mean, obviously it wouldnt be all fun and laughter but... even if it was once a week it would be worth it. i want it to be december. i dont know if i have another semester left in me...
Thursday, November 1, 2007
and, where, when =I'm.
And its hard not to feel blue when you havent showered in 2 days. whats the point? It's not like I'll see you.
And right when you think you might have potential you manage to screw up instant pudding... twice.
When you become a depressing shut-in and you notice your chair has a perfect ass-groove. and damn, it is big.
When yourself is the scariest thing on halloween night.
When you hate every inhaling breath because all it does is make your stomach even bigger than it was before.
When you wake up thinking you're not so bad looking, only to catch your reflection 3 hours later and feel nothing but repulsed.
And even though he tells you he loves you, you're terrified of the inevitable disappointment.
Where this would all almost be humorus if it wasnt you.
Almost be humorus if you werent fighting back tears every minute.
And then you try to write a poem but you fail at that too.
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