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I wish i could paint a whole room in whatever color this is, blue-gold? Oh and check out citizen of tomorrow by tokyo police club.

please dont let me be misunderstood

I should clear something up.

Derek and i dont fight all the time. we just squabble. I mean, this blog is a little one-sided. its easy for me to complain, but then that leaves you all thinking he's a terrible guy and he isnt. at all. the fact of the matter is i love him very much. and being with him makes me happy. there was a point where i was frustrated and unsure, but now i see that i truely and honestly want to be with him. He's not perfect, but neither am i, and i shouldnt expect him to be. I'm sure if you all met him you'd like him. But i'm glad that you all care about me very much, i care about you all too and i understand why you'd be concerned. I love him, and i love you all.

hey guys!

So i dont have a lot of time, but i thought i'd do a quickie (or is it quicky?... quickey...whatever) So yeah. things have been alright. Some days are good and some days are bad... Its not that he's a bad guy or anything like that we're just so different. I dont like arguing this much... but then again, the good days we have are really sweet and good so its like, is the juice worth the squeeze? Pray that i figure that out please.

Leave me lots of comments guys i miss you all very very much. i love you.

-abby

HEY

Sorry for the lack of updating guys, but theres no wireless out here so i have to share one computer with a house full of people. And by 'out here' i mean Kentucky. yes. Kentucky. I've been here about a week now. I left only telling my parents. I know i should have told everyone where i was going and what i was doing but... well. i knew everyone would look down on me and try to talk me out of it. But i still should have been honest and for that i apologize. Let me at least try and explain myself.

1.) I've never been to Kentucky.
2.)I knew Derek enough to trust him, and know that he is a good guy, and that he wouldnt just leave me stranded if things dont work out between us.
3.) It's only 3 months. I'm going back to Minnesota in May to live with Addison and Sara (and yes, Derek is moving to Minneapolis too, and no its not because of me its because he wants change and was thinking about Minnepolis or Seattle long before he met me).
4.)I'm young and now is the time. I hadnt started working anywhere in Phoenix, my dad was really getting on my nerves, i had just been kicked out of school, so why not now? Why not go somewhere new, be with new people, try new things before i go back to Minnesota in a couple of months? I guess i've just looked at this as more of an adventure than a risk. Maybe i should have seen it more as a risk, but i dont regret my decision.
5.) I guess... I guess part of my fear was that because i was far away we wouldnt have lasted. I mean, one thing i've learned is that distance is a bitch, to any relationships, not just boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. And i really care about him. really i do. i know this is all happening really fast but i feel like i've known him years- Cliche' as that sounds.

anyway... "Thats all i can think of to say to you" (Evita anyone?...no?..ok.)



In recent news. My sister found my pepper spray and thought it was a flashlight so she sprayed it in my room at home. God bless her....
And yes, i have pepper spray, i even have a refill in case i used it once. Thank you dad, and because i forgot my pepper spray my dad gave me one of his knives for the road... yikes.

hmmmm... what else... I went to a really bad metal show in Louisville (pronounced Lou-a-vul). When i was in Memphis (which is suprisingly ghetto), i saw a guy dressed as Elvis driving a Semi-truck. Nashville is nice, didnt really get to spend time there though. I'd put up pictures but again, i'm not on my computer so...yeah. I'll figure something out, we were gonna buy a router soon. The picutre above is of 'Cumberland Falls' thats kind of where i am. technically i'm in Russel Springs/Jamestown. Tara Connors, the Miss USA who got in trouble for having nude pictures and doing drugs (the girl who sparked the Donald Trump v.s. Rosie O'Donnel argument) is from here haha and apparently she was really slutty in highschool, and did a lot of drugs in highschool too. So basically she lied to everyone saying she was "swept up by the big city and didnt even know what cocain was when she first moved here." dumb.

Well i hope you're all doing splended. i love you all.


OH and listen to 'Danger! High Volatage' and 'Gay Bar' by Detroit rock band Electric 6 You wont be disappointed. AND 'Dumb it down' by Lupe Fiasco

OH! and if you're having trouble deciding on who to vote for go to http://glassbooth.org/ It says i should vote for Mike Gravel or Barak Obama. interesting...

So i've decided that I am Fergie.

creepy huh, you cant even tell the difference. i know. But, thats not why i'm Fergie. its more like, i identify with the lyrics of her new song "Clumsy" They go:

You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back

Can't help it
The girl can't help it (repeat 3x)



I'm not saying i'm a babe magnet or anything. that whole "i dont stay single for long" thing isnt true. but the part about i get sincerely crushed and then a day later i'm fall all over again, that part is true. I know it makes me really sketchy but. i dont know... i guess what i'm trying to say is theres this boy named Derek and i really like him and he really likes me and he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes. I havent told anyone about him just because i dont tell people about my personal life very often. I always think people dont take me seriously when it comes to guys because i'm always talking to different guys and it just doesnt seem 'credible' to them i guess. which to some extend i understand... it just makes me feel like crap every time i have to see people roll their eyes at me and talk down at me like a child every time i talk about it.

but i dont like lying either. so... guess i'll just throw it out there. met him on the internet. I know, I know, its sketchy. very sketchy. i get it. i also know its stupid and i know everyon thinks its lame and typical behavior of me and my low self esteem blah blah blah.

You can think whatever you want to. You can judge me as much as you want, but i guess what i'm saying is, I feel the way i feel and... well. thats all that matters to me. So yeah... this is my way of telling you all... and i'll probably get a lot of crap for this... but. oh well.

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So majestic.... And boring

Jacks Mannequin says it best when it comes to these matters...

Goodbye california... I love you. Dont forget me:(


-Into The Airwaves AND Bruised by Jacks Mannequin... check 'em out.